Do you remember?

Today marks four years since I lost Ryane, my best friend and soulmate. In her honor, I am publishing something I wrote about her six months after she passed away. Just so you all can remember how amazing and wonderful she really was to everyone she came into contact with. Do you remember? Do you … Continue reading Do you remember?

The living dead.

The living dead. How is it that someone who has been gone over three years somehow is still present in my life? How can they continue to enter into my thoughts? Why do I continue to ask her questions, when I know I won't receive a response? How are you still so present? Why do … Continue reading The living dead.

Asphyxiation

Suffocation. Do you know the feeling of loss? It's the feeling of your throat closing up. Breathing is difficult. You begin to suffocate, as if the world without them no longer has oxygen. How am I supposed to breath without them? They were my oxygen. My reason for living. The person I turned to for … Continue reading Asphyxiation

My Built in Best Friend

Today is the three year anniversary of my sister, Ryane, leaving this world.  In her memory, here is my post from a week after she passed away.  Always remember ❤ My twin sister, Ryane (pronounced Ryan), passed away 11 days ago.  I am still in shock and feel as if I will be the rest … Continue reading My Built in Best Friend

Soulmates Without a Choice

I recently went to Barnes and Noble to pick up a book for the trip to Florida my family is taking.  When I was there, I decided to look in the section for grieving.  There I found this book called Grief One Day at a Time by Alan D. Wolfelt, Ph.D.. If any one is … Continue reading Soulmates Without a Choice

My Triggered Reality

Catch up.  Two exams.  Four homework assignments.  A project here and there.  Work three times a week.  Meetings on Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Saturday, and Sunday.  Making dinner. Grocery shopping. Laundry. Trying to get to bed on time, but going to bed at 1:00am.  Constant motion.  Then, a trigger.  A song, a sad smile, a beautiful … Continue reading My Triggered Reality