How does this never get any easier. For five years - This day comes around makes it difficult to breathe sucks the life right out of me the wound is reopened all over again gaping as if it just occurred yesterday Just for this day could the world just stop. Acknowledge the life that was … Continue reading Today is for You
Do you remember?
Today marks four years since I lost Ryane, my best friend and soulmate. In her honor, I am publishing something I wrote about her six months after she passed away. Just so you all can remember how amazing and wonderful she really was to everyone she came into contact with. Do you remember? Do you … Continue reading Do you remember?
Because of you
Ryane, You would be happy to know that I am more myself than I have been in a long time. More of the goofy, sarcastic sister that you knew, the one who would banter with others, who laughed easily and loved hard, the sister you grew up with, that you nurtured, she went away for … Continue reading Because of you
The living dead.
The living dead. How is it that someone who has been gone over three years somehow is still present in my life? How can they continue to enter into my thoughts? Why do I continue to ask her questions, when I know I won't receive a response? How are you still so present? Why do … Continue reading The living dead.
We are okay.
I miss you. And we are all doing well. And that's what really gets to me. The fact that you are no longer in this world. Someone who made my life better every day - just by knowing you were out there, but no longer... And yet, we are all moving forward. Because life without … Continue reading We are okay.
The permanence of death - It is something you never really contemplate or understand until it's thrust upon you, and then your brain doesn't even allow you to comprehend it. You try over and over to understand, "This person will no longer be in your life, you will not see them ever again, you will … Continue reading Permanent Death
Suffocation. Do you know the feeling of loss? It's the feeling of your throat closing up. Breathing is difficult. You begin to suffocate, as if the world without them no longer has oxygen. How am I supposed to breath without them? They were my oxygen. My reason for living. The person I turned to for … Continue reading Asphyxiation
To choose love
What do we all deserve and need in a relationship? Acceptance. The other must look at you and see the amazing qualities you have. And see you for your faults. And with those faults, they must accept. Not try to change or improve. They must look at ALL of you. The good AND the bad. … Continue reading To choose love
One Half of Another
You may be wondering where the name "One Half of Another" came from. As many of you who have been following me know, my twin sister, Ryane passed away over three years ago in a tragic accident. To cope with her death, I began blogging to share what was on my heart and in the … Continue reading One Half of Another
The Price of Grief
I cannot explain grief to you. All I can say is it is a creature of spontaneity. It doesn't wait until a holiday or a birthday. Or even an anniversary. No, it strikes during a lone car ride. During a Netflix movie. While your grocery shopping. While your laughing with friends. When you hear a … Continue reading The Price of Grief