Today is for You

How does this never get any easier. For five years - This day comes around makes it difficult to breathe sucks the life right out of me the wound is reopened all over again gaping as if it just occurred yesterday Just for this day could the world just stop. Acknowledge the life that was …

The fallacy of the world

I am sure for those who have been following my blog for awhile many of you may think - "Oh, she must be doing better - Her grief most be lighter, her burden not as heavy..." Or maybe you understand the inner workings of grief and know that each day is different from the last. …

Happy 24th, Ryane.

As I reflect over the past year and all the changes that have occurred, I can't help but think of you, Ryane. It has been 3.5 years without you. Today marks the fourth birthday that I have to celebrate without you in the world. In some ways, it has gotten easier. Now when I start …

Dissipate the Darkness

It's crazy how death and loss creates a wound. One that never fully heals. And like any wound can reopen at any moment. These awful moments in our life. The moments you used to think "that would never happen to me." But when it does you are shocked. The worst moments of our lives. When …

Without them

It's like a ticking time bomb. One minute you are in the present. The next you are thrown into a memory. Not by choice. And you leave the present to be there. To experience it as if it is all that exists. It replays. It must have been triggered by something? Or maybe not? It …

Unable are the Loved to die –

I've recently had a reoccurring theme come through my life and it is all based around a poem by Emily Dickinson. It goes as such: Unable are the Loved to die For Love is Immortality, Nay, it is Deity - Unable they that love - to die For Love reforms Vitality Into Divinity. I have …