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I want to reach out to those who are finding their way along the journey of life.
I am the queen of having plans that do not work out the way I intended.
Last year, I was 99% sure I would be going to St. Louis University to complete my Master’s in Social Work (MSW).
I was interviewing for a position that would have provided me with a full-ride at the school.
It was down to me and one other person.
And I was completely sure that I was going to get the job.
And you know what happened…
I did not get it.
My world crumpled around me.
It took me days, maybe even weeks to get the motivation to start reevaluating my plan.
And that’s when I found Aurora University.
It is well known for it’s MSW program. It’s close to where I currently live, and it was at an affordable price.
The stars seemed to align, because once I applied everything began to fall into place.
I was accepted in June.
I worked hard to obtain an internship by the end of July.
And I coordinated with McDonald’s Corporation in allowing me to transition to a part-time job.
Finally, things were going well.
Looking back, this was the plan intended all along.
I was humbled again recently.
I am currently searching for my “advanced” internship within a school setting for next year.
I have applied to about fifteen school districts. Emailed various people. And followed up with calls as well.
And have only heard back from a handful of schools.
I had an interview that went really well, which lead me to a second interview for a certain position.
I went to the second interview feeling very confident (probably overly confident, if I am being honest).
The interview (I felt) went really well; the program sounded amazing.
The next day my world came to a halt when I was told I did not get the internship.
I was devastated again.
I went into another frenzy, and began a new round of emails to HR and the school districts to try and search for a new opportunity.
I had an interview scheduled last Monday, and I went in feeling like the underdog.
I was ready to do anything to prove that I was this school districts best choice.
Said a quick prayer beforehand, “Dear God, Please help me through this interview. If it is Your plan for me, please allow me to interview well and show them that I am a good fit for their district. Amen.”
Short and sweet, and onto the interview I went.
And I walked into NINE people at a table ready to interview me.
Pretty intimidating, then I was asked about two questions by each person.
Which I believe I answered well.
And I ended by saying, “I don’t have any more questions, but I am going to plead my case. I know you have a lot of other applicants, but you should pick me because….”
I walked out of there knowing that I laid it all out for them.
I showed them who I was and all the experience I have gained over the years.
After all that, if they turned me down, then it was not meant to be.
As I am driving away, an email pops up on my phone.
It is from one of the people who interviewed me.
All it says is, “I walked back into the room, and they told me to call you right back. They were impressed with you and all your experience. I will call you tomorrow. Well done.”
And then, I burst into tears.
Out of relief. Out of joy. Out of knowing that I was good enough.
Do not get discouraged with the rejections.
As they are the moments that can help define you.
It is a choice to decide if you will give up because of it, or fight harder for what you want.
Because it just takes one “yes” to catapult you into the rest of your life.
All I am trying to say is for those who feel like they keep hitting dead-ends.
Or you are giving everything you got and not receive anything back.
Or you are questioning your worth.
Know that there is a Plan.
You may have to work a little harder to get there.
But these “failures” are your sign.
They are your motivators.
If I had given up when I realized St. Louis was not happening, I would not be in the amazing program at AU.
If when I got rejected by the first school district, I had believed that I was not worth it, or I did not deserve an internship, then I would not have gotten the call back about a position with another district.
Know your worth.
It seems my own tread was always becoming overconfident, acting as if I knew the plan, and when failure struck I was devastated.
But from these rejections, I would rise up better than before.
Humble and willing to fight.
It motivated me to fight for the positions I wanted.
I would no longer feel entitled to what I thought was mine.
I was grateful for the opportunity.
Grateful to be accepted into AU.
Grateful to find that first internship.
And now grateful to have fought for my next internship.
I listened to the Plan, instead assuming the Plan.
If you are someone out there, who has recently been disappointed.
Fight for what you want.
And know that you are meant for great things.
If you thought that path was the best plan out there for you, know that the position you do get is truly what you are meant to do.
You may not understand why until you start the position, or it may take years for you to understand the value.
But there is a Plan.
Allow for God to work through you.
And enjoy life as you go.
Every time I thought I was being rejected from something good, I was actually being re-directed to something better. -Dr. Steve Maraboli
For I know the plans that I have for you, ‘declares the Lord,’ plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. -Jeremiah 29
I can do all things through Him who strengthens me. -Philippians 4:13
And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. -2 Corinthians 12:9